confession.

just a short post. this' about my confession about my life, my feel, n how i want him. haha.
confession 1.
gw seneng klo tiba" ada org manggil gw, setelah gw diem, brasa di asingin. it feels like they know you. artinya gw masih dianggep.
confession 2.
gw ga suka yg gw ajak ngomong, mukanya ga bisa biasa. they need my answer about their question, but they look like i'm such a freak who talk to them. gw ini orgny sensitif. jd liat muka org ga bisa byasa, bawaan gw judes aj ma tuh org.
confession 3.
words i like is.. "respect others, so you'll be respected too" ini jd kata" yg gw jadiin keg.. pedoman idup gtu deh. haha.. i try to respect them, but why they cant respect me? gw jg ga suka orang kurang ajar, apalagi yg lebih muda. merintah seenak puser, ngomong kasar. ga tau diri aj. gw bentak masi ngeyel. org" najis inilah yg bikin gw BT.
confession 4.
gw gampang bgt adore someone. tp kali ini beda. cowok ini. beda dr yg lain. dy ad d mimpi gue belasan kali, ketemu terus walo ga dicariin, ketawa pas liat gw lg ngelawak sama temen gw. sebelnya, we're not friends yet. i wish we can be friends but how? ke dia, gw malu bgt. takut gw d anggep GR, gatel, dkk dll. so i just can stand behind him, look around him, and when he caught my eyes, i lied. i know he often looks at me, tp gw ga tau itu tandanya apa. bisa aja wkt itu gw pernah ngelakuin hal geblek dan konyol, n scara ga langsung dy ngebully gw. atw bisa aj emang..(i wish for this too) he wants me to be his friend too. XD postingan ini gw tujuin buat dy. haha. cuma 2 kata yg pnah gw ucapin k dy. **** ya, tengkiu, sorry

i can trust to no one

-turn into bahasa for a while-
jadi brasa gada yg bisa gw percaya deh. dan gw lg sangat amat sinis ma org". hah.. omg. pengen kluar dr smak5 aj deh. gue boseeen!! pengen curhat, gatau mo k siapa. abis gw ud keburu ga percayaan sih ma org".. gw trauma sih. rahasia gw bocor. smua jd runyem. complicated bangetlah. dan gw brasa gw jd lbh diem pdhl biasanya gw reweeeeeeel bgt. abis gw gatau mo ngmg ap. ngomong ini, ntar salah. ngmg itu, salah. pengen ngeluarin smuany tapi susah. males bgt mo k BP. tlalu melankolis bgt kliatanny. pengen pny tmn yg ga dkt ma gw, yg beda negara, yg ga tw gw keg gmn, n curhat ma dy. sygny, temen gw itu ud jarang bgt OL *bayangin beda waktu UK n indo? gw bobo dy skul* yg d afrika, omg anak punk bgt. si bocah NY itu pemuja seks. ohmy. susah susahhhhh!!!
bisa ga sih gw keg gini sama someone?