eleventh grader..

have been a social eleventh grader for more than a month and just found some bad and good experiences. got 2 struggling weeks in the new class with loneliness, boredom, conflict w some 'friends' and blablahblah. i hate this class. at all. but later on, i feel different. this class goes more comfort, eventho still dont like the peep inside. busying myself w reading thick novels. pffuuhh.. my life gets worse than last year. nothing else i can tell u. even the good experience. :(
anyway, my pocket camera has broken. then dad tried to service it and the service-man told him, it's still in guarantee but we have to buy the spare part costs around 1 million rupiahs. then dad doesnt wanna repair it n prefer buy the new one(or buy a digicam-i think it's not good) naaah. i think it's a wise decision if we better buy a SLR than pocket camera, noooo??? :(

Yay-ness

Ok then. Today's my n whole smak5 students' big bang day. There're some peep who failed and there're tons who have passed. Im so happy im officially a 11-sos student. But lil bit sad i have to b separated with my friends whos in science class :'c
For u guys who havent passed ths year, believe me ths' not ur doomday. Think positive. Ull get more new friends, new experiences. U just 1 year left behind, doesnt mean u're d worst eh? Just take d chance n do better ;)
Then my report wasnt bad. D average score's around 70/71-forgot. but super disappoint with my chemistry score. I got 291 for social. Ok maybe we can say it's bad-i wished at least i got 310. Hmm. Oh anw ive bought d diana mini already! Its damn difficult to be used. Hx.. I have a prob with its viewfinder. The opague for halfframe format stucks eventho in square format. I got d prob solving on flickr but still dnt understand. Sigh. Hey how bout ur holiday? Good eh? I just have nothing to do. No money, no companion. Just waiting for d right time to buy a sewing machine. I have no doubt anymore :D

when will i die?

always think bout this when i'm in a desperate situation like today. my room was a mess caused by washing machine beside my bedroom. cryin. stress. then i was thinking bout these questions.
when will i die?
how will i die?
is there anyone will cry for me?
will i accept in heaven?
ah so damnly emo yeah.
but in the afternoon, 5 orders of mrfreddy from my friends. so happy now and there're 9 orders. need 3 more orders to get my comission. :)
i wanna buy this.


IDR 50k, is it worth to buy?
*but hell yeah. i lose it maybe. after i commented on this photo, 1 girl booked it. BOOOO!

i can trust to no one

-turn into bahasa for a while-
jadi brasa gada yg bisa gw percaya deh. dan gw lg sangat amat sinis ma org". hah.. omg. pengen kluar dr smak5 aj deh. gue boseeen!! pengen curhat, gatau mo k siapa. abis gw ud keburu ga percayaan sih ma org".. gw trauma sih. rahasia gw bocor. smua jd runyem. complicated bangetlah. dan gw brasa gw jd lbh diem pdhl biasanya gw reweeeeeeel bgt. abis gw gatau mo ngmg ap. ngomong ini, ntar salah. ngmg itu, salah. pengen ngeluarin smuany tapi susah. males bgt mo k BP. tlalu melankolis bgt kliatanny. pengen pny tmn yg ga dkt ma gw, yg beda negara, yg ga tw gw keg gmn, n curhat ma dy. sygny, temen gw itu ud jarang bgt OL *bayangin beda waktu UK n indo? gw bobo dy skul* yg d afrika, omg anak punk bgt. si bocah NY itu pemuja seks. ohmy. susah susahhhhh!!!
bisa ga sih gw keg gini sama someone?

heck.

too much disappointing things this week. starts from bad mood everyday, disappointed with those peeps.. tired, blablabla.. i didnt enjoy love, sex, and dating event which held on last wday. so boring to met evans garey again. and on thursday, the senior class held seminaar too. and hellish, bout homosexual etc, and excatly bout sex. man. Dr.Boyke came to gave us seminaar and yes. he's awesome. i like the seminaar session but i dislike accoustic fever n others. not really enjoy that time. why? coz there's no one i could talk to. could cha imagine that?
i watched this on i am straight event (seminaar). this' very very heart-touching *yea maybe coz im a daughter, and saw the father's very gentle n responsible?

oh damn

still under construction.

so sad to left my blog. i couldnt sign in coz some probs. and i dont understand how to fix it. fyi, it;s been a year n a month we've been together. ah! if we're a couple, it's a long time relationship, right?
oh man.
i'll duplicate all of those things in the same with this one.
ah.
here's my TRAP blog. not officialy yet. and its FB. please add.